As you can see...

Davey is already taking on the persona of cool older brother.

Boy, it's boy!

So yes. We found out yesterday and we're super excited. Of course there's a twang of disappointment that we won't get to experience having a girl, there's no denying that but there's so many awesome things about having a boy and about having 2 boys. Also, no teenage girl drama. Thank you Jesus! I gave my mother hell and I have a whole lot of Karma headed my way in that dept. so I think I may have just dogged a massive bullet. Whew!

Now we just have to figure out what to name this little dude. Deron has given me his name choice but I'm not allowed to speak about it here or anywhere for that matter. It's pure torture.

The most fantastic news in the world is that the baby is growing perfectly and very healthy and looking great. I'm thrilled. Go baby go!!

Davey's Words

Ball
Hi
Dog
Cat
Duck
Water (wha)
Bottle (Ba)
Mama
Dada (Ga)
Food
Car
Go
Walk (wha)
Bowl
Plate
Pop (corn)
Bath (ba)
Poo
Pee
Kiah (his cousin)
Please (plee)
Pool
Bike
Hat
Eggs (ayes)
Ice
yes (yah)

I think there are more. It seems like he's getting a new one every day. He understands so much more than he can say and he can communicate what he wants with signs and gestures. For instance putting him hands under his armpits and making monkey sounds means, "i want to watch my curious george video." he is obsessed with curious george and it's no wonder because they resemble each other a lot. I'm sure most people feel that their toddlers resemble monkeys but Davey is especially monkey like I think. He likes to watch the PBS show and also the full length movie with Will Ferrel as the voice of the Man with the Yellow Hat, which is pretty cute. We also listen to the Jack Johnson CD that is the soundtrack ad Naseaum.

Oh I forgot two more words: More and No. Those are used A LOT, especially more. Davey wants more of everything.

I went to an orientation for the preschool/daycare we're sending him to next Fall. He'll be going MWF 9-3. I'm really excited for him to start. It's such a great place. I love the director and the teachers and their philosophy and the environment. It's super diverse and the best part is that it wasn't outrageously priced and they didn't have a 3 year waiting list. Awesome. It's also very close to our house. It think he's going to love it.

How are you feeling?

This is the question you get asked a lot when you are pregnant. Also, "when are you due?' and "Do you know if it's a boy or a girl?' Usually the person asking you doesn't really care and they've already asked you these same series of questions about 10 times and you've told them the answers already: Tired, October 17th, I'll find out in 2 weeks.

It's not a big deal. It's just small talk and you know it's nice to get extra attention and acknowledgement in any form, so I'll take it.

I'm already showing quite a bit. I look now at 3 1/2 months about the same as what I looked like at 5 months with Davey. They say it's very common to start showing early when it's not your first baby. Your body is just like, "Ok, got it!" Also the lack of sit ups in the interim didn't help. I had a stranger in line at Starbucks acknowledge that I was pregnant so I think it's pretty obvious but still when I tell people at work they act surprised, which is interesting since I've been wearing full on maternity wear for the last 2 weeks. I don't know if they are just acting or if they really are surprised.

I am still very tired. I think I started to feel better with Davey at around 14 weeks so hopefully I'll start getting some energy back soon. I'm just really hitting this wall where I'm so tired of feeling tired and the fatigue is turning into a sort of cranky depression. It's hard to remember that it's temporary and for the best cause in the world but I'm trying to remind myself. When we were trying to get pregnant I would just pray and pray. Please just let me be pregnant. That's all I want. If I can have this baby, I'll be truly happy. And so now I'm having the baby and I best be happy! I am. I really am.

I go back to the doctor on Tuesday, April 28th to do some blood work and also to see if maybe we can see if it's a boy or a girl. Dup and Davey are going to come with me which is exciting because so far they haven't come to any of my appointments. With Davey, Dup came to every single one of my Doctor appointments. The poor little tiny baby is already getting the second kid treatment!

I'm super excited to find out the sex of the baby. Probably more so than I was last time. Mainly because of the name. The name is really up in the air this time. I'm not going to be able to share with you my picks because we are going to keep the name a secret until the baby is born. I know that's tricky and cruel to you, my audience but the thing is that people have such strong opinions about names and they have no problem sharing them with you and if you don't like my names then I really don't care to hear about it. So I'd rather just wait until it's too late and there's nothing you can say. That's the kid's name ok? LOVE IT! I'm not really talking to You when I say this. I'm talking to some other insensitive clod. Don't worry, not you.

So Dup won't even tell me his names. He knows how hot headed and judgemental I am and that I'll shoot his names down in 2 seconds like Jesse James at High Noon. And he's right. I will. I know I will but STILL. Does he have to be so cruel? I keep trying to get his names out of him but to no avail. He's told me that when we find out the sex of the baby he's going to write his names for that sex down on a piece of paper and put that paper in an envelope and give it to me. Then I can look at it but I'm not allowed to discuss it with him for one week.

It's a great idea but it will never work.

The other thing about knowing the sex is that I can start decorating the room. This baby has it's own room! It's so exciting! Davey had a corner. He has a room now but when we were in Brooklyn and I was pregnant, people would come over and be like, "where does the baby go?" Not the case this time around. This baby has the corner office! Fun.

I'm definitely starting to feel much less nervous about losing the baby or something bad happening to the baby but I'm still nervous. Luckily my mom is letting me borrow a professional doppler that she had an extra of in her office. She's a nurse practitioner. If you don't know, a doppler is a device that is sort of like a small ultrasound microphone that you stick up to your belly to hear the baby's heartbeat. So now, I can listen for the baby's heartbeat when I want to. It took me a while to get up the courage to use it because I was so afraid that I wouldn't be able to hear it. But now I've done it a few times and I can hear it! Cha pow, cha pow, cha pow. The doppler is cool because you get more of the sense that the sound is coming from your belly. When you see an ultra sound it's hard to connect it to what is inside you. It's more like, "the baby is in the screen." I think that once I start to feel the baby move, I will feel really really relieved and very very happy. When you can feel them move, it's just so amazing and wonderful. I just love it and it makes it so much more real. I can't wait.

I'll keep you posted!

letting the cat out

Good news to share, I'm 12 weeks pregnant. Made it! Whew. Of course, I'm still a bit nervous but I'm feeling for the most part very relieved and excited now. I'm starting to get a little energy back and I'm feeling less pukey but still pretty pukey.

We're due Oct. 17th, little Libra. We will hopefully be able to find out the sex at our next appt., April 28th. I'll keep you posted. Like last time, we'll keep the name to ourselves until after the baby is born.

I'm feeling much more connected to this preganancy than the one that I lost in November. It's very different. I feel very positive and warm about it. I can see the trajectory. It's good. I think it's probably the same little soul trying again but the timing is better this time.

Wish us luck!